Redemption :

the blending in of my own humanity

the death of me

giving up slowly

screaming for you to help me

hope and insecurity

trapped inside of me

my walls crumble all around me

the walls i build

walls that was not ment for me

escaping in the wrong direction

lost in tranquility

need to stop

this i made my own

you touch me with grace i don’t understand

yet i chain myself to my own abilities

short-coming of that what you can give me

i’m my own hostage

and i have the key

fighting to get you out

from the place where you’ll always be

grace, love and acceptance

concepts unacceptable for me

deeply feeling your breath

burning my soul with desire for more

more of your peace

more of your freedom

calming my senses

giving my life to live

this redemption

you are the escape for me

- H. De Villiers - 

Shooting Stars :

It’s all clear to me now

The way I feel

To real for me now

No matter how many times I look at you

You still don’t feel real

It’s all clear to me now

The way in

An emergency exit out

Closer and closer

Further apart

Heartache is near

The sensation of fear

Deeper in

Pain is near

It’s all clear to me now

I was born for this

This moment

This laps in time

Where my world meets yours

Your perfection to shine

In this glimpse of time

It’s all clear

It all disappear

- H. De Villiers - 

Morning dust :

Morning dust

Filled with lust

Eyes of gold

Rip my soul

Love and fear

All so near

Skin ice cold

In the razor sharp world

Transparent in time

Forever mine

So far

So near

Why always fear

Hand and love

Hand of hate

All that this world have create

Morning dust

Children crushed

Pain and sorrow

My world

My tomorrow

- H. De Villiers -

Power of Love

I searched in the hope to find

The words to describe

How you make me feel inside

For long I have wondered what it is called

This sensation within my soul

If you touch me I tremble

My heart beat so fast

I hold on to you

With every breath that I have

The kiss of your lips

Rip my body apart

As you touch me deep within my heart

Far have I reached

Never to find

What is true

And what is mine

But within your glaze

I can see that you care

Looking beyond my skin

Into the person deep within

You make me feel warm and safe

And I am no longer afraid

Because of this

I can now say

That I hope this feeling never dies

Cause for the first time

Love has changed my mind

- H. De Villiers - 

Becoming moon and sun :

Fading away

Slowly apart

You and I

No longer one heart

As you drift in the sun

The sky is so blue

My heart still yours

My mind all on you

But the moon has to shine

With the sun in her heart

Not always together

Further apart

Your shadow will fall

To blind my light

But my heart will still burn

With your love insight

This reality we share

Always will show

Even as we drift in the shadows

Emptiness apart

The bond will stay compelling

Unconditionally of sight

Forever you and I

Fill others hearts

Bringing light where there was darkness

For them to never part

Even though you and me

Have to drift apart

- H.De Villiers -

Numb :

Unwrapping all my feelings

Feeling things never really felt before

Pain

Love and

Sorrow

Naming only a few

But never really knew

That the one feeling that made me whole

Would be the one feeling

That would brake my soul

For this hope that I created

Became superior pain then sorrow

Love became a hope to contain

Pain became a hope to avoid

Deciding

That the only way to feel

Is not to feel at all

- H. de Villiers -

The Wheel of Life

The circle of life takes us places

Spins us round – rearrange our faces

Castles built

Walls broken down

Leaving behind loved once

Forever forsaken

Memories collections of smiles and faces

Treasures kept in hiding

To fade in time

As we apart

No matter how well prepared

No matter what time where given

Nothing can prevent the pain of loosing

Or the sadness that comes with it

Tested and measured

By uncertainty

No waiting for recovery

No waiting for us to be

Choosing your path

Right or left

Wrong or right

No return there will be

Yet the wheel keeps turning

And we love it

- H. De Villiers - 

This is for you:

This is not a love rhyme

No, this is for you

To say thank you for all that you do

You are the best thing that ever happen to me

I know you won’t believe it to be

My world have changed, but yet you remained – all in a day!

I can’t explain how much this means to me

And I’ll cherish every moment – not even a glimpse it may seem

You taught me secrets of how to live and of how to share the emotions in me

A friend you where for me in need

A friend you are still, indeed

The only one that could see - I was hiding

From the world - I was dying

Now you are in a place very deep inside my heart

Where there is no escape – no falling apart

Thank you, is all I can say

For giving are only taking

And you and me are so far apart

Hopefully this thank you will reach you soon

Even if

After all

You are just the voice inside of me

- H.De Villiers -

The Uncontrollable :

today i’ve run - i’ve run so far

to be anywhere but where you are

its been awhile, years in fact, but,

you’ve make me fall

far and hard

leaving me helpless, broken and apart

but i will run away from where ever you are

for just today i’ve felt you stare

again and again, creeping me,

freaking me,

till my heart starts beating fast,

faster still

leaving me paralyzed

numb and distracted

with shocks and horror running down my spine

staring, glaring – almost unbarring

that’s why you make me run - I’ve never ran so far

as long as i’m away from you

‘cause that’s where its the safest to be

not  how i wanted it

but, choices i had to make

for wrongs i have done

only me to rectify

leaving myself to satisfy

so i will run

faster and faster still

i’ll run away from you

away from the one i cant bare to face

so that your stare won’t drag me in

or pull me closer

to your unforgiving mind

eating me whole

shrinking away my soul

so i will run far far away

to a place where i can control

this uncontrollable

- H. De Villiers - 

Frozen :

My heart are frozen
Breakable,
But not without pain
Cold,
But as warm as rain on a summers day
Soft,
But harden by painful words
That's too often said
Too often not mend
A joke
To painful to face
To true
But numbed

- H. De Villiers -

Today :

Today

Allow me to feel for you

I want to be there for you

Today your tears are all mine

Let me feel your every pain

All your sadness

Alive in me

I want to be there for you

I want to be close to you

Hold you near me

Feel you closely

Touch your senses

All around me

Today

Allow me to feel for you

I want to be there for you

- H. De Villiers -

Broken Angel :

Deep despair
To hard to bear
Angels with no wings
Broken within
Tear no longer
A cleanser of thee soul
For cries have dried
This broken mind
Empty, unwhole
That day that shook
my heart
no more spoke
of you without tears
now I’m left with no more comfort
but seeing you smile again
for hope of having you with me
every day with no end
was taken from me with no reason
only pain within

- H. De Villiers -

Feeless :

With a touch of your hand

You heal the broken
A gift you obtained
With your heart outspoken

The glare of your eyes
Captivate – mesmerized

The strength in your hands
Wrapped around my shoulders
Showing your grace
Your compassion
Your wisdom

Protector of life
The living among us
Sharing of knowledge
Combining of strengths
To defend this haven
With all your force

You surround our being
You defend in all your might
You are the saviour of nations
You are the light in the night
With your sort of strength
You fight for our right
Dressed with perfection
Armour of might
Your enemies tremble
By the sound of your name
Power unrevealing
Chosen to do what’s right

Your power – our freedom

- H. De Villiers -

Things that I am thankful for :

I am thankful for my family
that love me unconditionally

I am thankful for my friends
that brighten me up when a day goes unbearably wrong

I am thankful for that special person
that’s always there even if I’m not

I am thankful for my wellbeing
that let me sleep in every now and again

I am thankful for music
that make me dance and sing all day long

I am thankful for sunshine
that bring this glow to my smile

I am thankful for love
that all of us have in our hearts

I am thankful for my bank account
that pays for more than needed

I am thankful for my work
even if i don’t feel like working

I am thankful for my car
that drive me to where ever you are

I am thankful that I have no pain
something I see to often

I am thankful for forgiveness
that bind us together

I am thankful for my knowledge
a gift so frequently neglected

I am thankful for stars
that make me realize
that I’ll never be alone

I am thankful that I have it all
even if I feel hollow

I am thankful for You
the creator of all things
all that I’m thankful for

- H. De Villiers -

Mesmerized :

Strange but true never revealed
Only shown beneath our skin

Do you have unusual ways?
Maybe normal in another place

Do not feel alone
For you’ll never be
Unless you wane be special
Almost as special as me

Strange may be normal
But not normal for me
Normal not defined
In my mind to be

Wacky ways are usual
Common more to me
It is strange that trigger
The attention in me

Do you wane be noticed
In the normal way
Then do all that’s more then common
Usual for all days

Or would you like to be
Mesmerized for me
Then do as much unexpected
Never usual indeed

Then to be the strange and true
Will be true to thee
Shown apart from your body
All for me

- H. De Villiers -

Battle of each day :

running faster, i cant keep up
dripping sweat running down my cold face
showing my emotion
flikkers of no grace
a choice so hard to follow
yet so easy to make
hungering yourself for that last taste
sensation of fulfillment
not fulfilling at all
only hungering for more
breaking out for the next run
heart beating like a drum
knowing that you cant keep up the pace
pulling yourself into murder
of all your given faith
sacrificing that one pleasure
to hard to face
all for your own discomfort
your own miss taste
incorrectly moving into this worldly face
slowly gaining strength
to breath while in so much pain
trying to keep up
this devastating pace
thanking all the supporters
that witnessed your embrace
to this ungodly given...
never ending race

- H. De Villiers -

Missing you :

cold and warm

happy and sad

knowing not, what to feel

knowing not, where to find

are you mine

i am blinded

by this confusion

this optical illusion

no sleeping

hunger for more

of your comfort

and wisdom

truth unrevealed

controlled, by that i lack

are you real

am i captured

by nothing at all

by hunger

by fear

by you

by me

empty thoughts

missing

not you

but you in all

why i don’t know

but i do

- H. De Villiers -

Love Magic Music Baby...

Feel the beat...

Feel the rhythm

Feel the beat...

Pum - pa - pum pum - pa

Pum – pa - pum pum - pa

Loosen your body

Open your mind

Relaxing

In a total trance

Feel the beat

Feel the heat

Pum - pa - pum pum - pa

Pum – pa - pum pum - pa

Rushing in your body

Make the moment yours

Leaving your mind now

Your body no longer in control

The beat taking over your soul

Restlessness no longer in your mind

But in your body filled with lies

Feel the beat

Feel the music

Feel the heat

Pum - pa - pum pum - pa

Pum – pa - pum pum - pa

Feeling the sweat on your body glow

Tense dripping from your sacred soul

Bump against the being by your side

Feeling their warmth

The heat inside

Ripping your mind from all that was

Leaving you naked in your thoughts

Tripping on the rhythm

Pum - pa - pum pum - pa

Pum – pa - pum pum - pa

Sound that blast your insides still

Surrendering your mind

Sacrificing your soul

In trans you remain

Pum - pa - pum pum - pa

Pum – pa - pum pum - pa

Until the end and then

Silence...

Pain...

- H. De Villiers -

Goodbye – for now :

Today I am leaving for a new job with better opportunities. But even if the new beginning are so rewarding, I have to leave behind things that I was used to and people that I love. I have written this poem because I love my friend so much. I will miss her company every day but most of all - I will miss her just being there for me - EVERYDAY. Even if both of us had a bad day.

I will miss you!

Goodbye - for now :

Every thing has to end
Even the rainbow
With a pot gold

The sun need to stop shining
To give us the beautiful sky

The sea has to come to shore
So that we can play and swim

Ice-cream with yummy chocolate
All at the end

When we say goodbye we hug and smile
Mmm, what a treat... squeeze

To do it all over again
Tommorrow or the other day

Today I say goodbye
But with a cry

I will be sad for a little while
But it will end - like everything else

Do not cry now
Do not fear

There is a new beginning
Outa there

Happy I will leave here
With wisdom - have no fear

I bid you goodbye
With a hug
And a smile

- H. De Villiers -

Playful Happy :

Where does the road of happiness lead

Does it end or calm down

Who could tell me where to find

The unanswered in my mind

All day long I have to watch

The love and happiness that they've got

On the TV and in every show

Displays of never-ending love

Is it real

Does it exist

Or is it only ment

For the chosen princess

All this greed and foolishness

How could the world still exist

As a happy place for you and me

If all day long we have to fight

For that which rightfully is mine

How could we live together

Peacefully and adored

Distanced from one-another

Yet one in all our greed

Finding a way to love

Unconditionally

Is this ment for me?

Should we really live with all of this

Why all of this struggle and hunger

To be a part of what we need

Love and warmth of our souls

We brake each other down

To seek that what we don't grant

For the one that is left behind

Should we then play this game called love

The one thing that was given

From our God above

For all of us to have

Was love

Then why should we seek

Why should we fight

For the given

To be mine

Could we not stop this dispute

This hate and detestation

For one-another

For love

Do you not find it ridiculously ironic

That the only thing we all have

We still fight for every day

Ignorantly leaving it behind

Play all you want

Deny what you've done

But don't destroy

The only thing you need

This thing called love

- H. De Villiers -