The Uncontrollable :

today i’ve run - i’ve run so far

to be anywhere but where you are

its been awhile, years in fact, but,

you’ve make me fall

far and hard

leaving me helpless, broken and apart

but i will run away from where ever you are

for just today i’ve felt you stare

again and again, creeping me,

freaking me,

till my heart starts beating fast,

faster still

leaving me paralyzed

numb and distracted

with shocks and horror running down my spine

staring, glaring – almost unbarring

that’s why you make me run - I’ve never ran so far

as long as i’m away from you

‘cause that’s where its the safest to be

not  how i wanted it

but, choices i had to make

for wrongs i have done

only me to rectify

leaving myself to satisfy

so i will run

faster and faster still

i’ll run away from you

away from the one i cant bare to face

so that your stare won’t drag me in

or pull me closer

to your unforgiving mind

eating me whole

shrinking away my soul

so i will run far far away

to a place where i can control

this uncontrollable

- H. De Villiers -