Numb :

Unwrapping all my feelings

Feeling things never really felt before

Pain

Love and

Sorrow

Naming only a few

But never really knew

That the one feeling that made me whole

Would be the one feeling

That would brake my soul

For this hope that I created

Became superior pain then sorrow

Love became a hope to contain

Pain became a hope to avoid

Deciding

That the only way to feel

Is not to feel at all

- H. de Villiers -

The Wheel of Life

The circle of life takes us places

Spins us round – rearrange our faces

Castles built

Walls broken down

Leaving behind loved once

Forever forsaken

Memories collections of smiles and faces

Treasures kept in hiding

To fade in time

As we apart

No matter how well prepared

No matter what time where given

Nothing can prevent the pain of loosing

Or the sadness that comes with it

Tested and measured

By uncertainty

No waiting for recovery

No waiting for us to be

Choosing your path

Right or left

Wrong or right

No return there will be

Yet the wheel keeps turning

And we love it

- H. De Villiers - 

This is for you:

This is not a love rhyme

No, this is for you

To say thank you for all that you do

You are the best thing that ever happen to me

I know you won’t believe it to be

My world have changed, but yet you remained – all in a day!

I can’t explain how much this means to me

And I’ll cherish every moment – not even a glimpse it may seem

You taught me secrets of how to live and of how to share the emotions in me

A friend you where for me in need

A friend you are still, indeed

The only one that could see - I was hiding

From the world - I was dying

Now you are in a place very deep inside my heart

Where there is no escape – no falling apart

Thank you, is all I can say

For giving are only taking

And you and me are so far apart

Hopefully this thank you will reach you soon

Even if

After all

You are just the voice inside of me

- H.De Villiers -

The Uncontrollable :

today i’ve run - i’ve run so far

to be anywhere but where you are

its been awhile, years in fact, but,

you’ve make me fall

far and hard

leaving me helpless, broken and apart

but i will run away from where ever you are

for just today i’ve felt you stare

again and again, creeping me,

freaking me,

till my heart starts beating fast,

faster still

leaving me paralyzed

numb and distracted

with shocks and horror running down my spine

staring, glaring – almost unbarring

that’s why you make me run - I’ve never ran so far

as long as i’m away from you

‘cause that’s where its the safest to be

not  how i wanted it

but, choices i had to make

for wrongs i have done

only me to rectify

leaving myself to satisfy

so i will run

faster and faster still

i’ll run away from you

away from the one i cant bare to face

so that your stare won’t drag me in

or pull me closer

to your unforgiving mind

eating me whole

shrinking away my soul

so i will run far far away

to a place where i can control

this uncontrollable

- H. De Villiers - 

Frozen :

My heart are frozen
Breakable,
But not without pain
Cold,
But as warm as rain on a summers day
Soft,
But harden by painful words
That's too often said
Too often not mend
A joke
To painful to face
To true
But numbed

- H. De Villiers -